alrighty then.
LIFE.

Everything is getting pretty exciting with scholarships and college apps and everything seems to be going okay
I'm probably going to WSU (got my accecptance letter from them first) which is rad an all, but my 2 best friends and Gav are all gonna be at Fort Hays... I sorta feel like i should be with them, and yet, i'd just come back to WSU the year after that, so i don't really see the point in following everyone out there...
Still going with Music Ed k-12, super excited.. although i've already determined that my fallback will be History ed (particularily world history, US just bores me)
Gav and I have been dating for exactly a year today.. it's weird to think of everything that's happened.. It's especially weird to think that he hasn't even been home for about 1/4 of it now... I think i'm coping okay... I feel alot closer to my friends than i have in a few years and I feel like, for the first time, my best friend isn't also my boyfriend... I have a life, I actually get out a do things now, and even if gav does come out, i don't feel the need to drop everything for him..
I don't know if i can keep this up for a whole 'nother year though... especially when my friends will be in hays with gav.. assuming we're still together of course..
It's been a good year though, and I happy with it.. sure, it's had it's ups and god knows it's had it's downs... but overall, i feel 1 more year could be in the making
I'm excited to start college and a new job and i feel like i'm ready for the world..sorta

"so i'm the master chief and you are cortana

and we've just blown up halo and are now in a longsword attack fighter on the edge of the threshold gravity field

...alone..."



i love the internet.
sorry, i just had to share that..

good god, it's been a long time..
I've sorta been distracted the last month or so.. it's hard to believe a year has passed, and that i've actually become happier than i ever thought i could be a year ago.. Gav and I have been together for 9 months, and it's still going strong.. He left for Fort Hays a week ago, and I'm handling this alot better than i thought i would..
Right now i'm enjoying Trig and my first art class (: i'm really excited to be attending a scholarship dinner in a few weeks and i'm really really excited to see where i'll be a year from now.. i know this school year will be hard, but i know i have plenty of friends to lean on in the mean time (:
Music wise i'm moving up the ladder of sightreaders on piano, placing in state. and i'm moving full steam ahead with cello (: even without gavin here to help me, i'm doing pretty well and i've already chosen a piece to learn on my own, Bachs prelude to Suite 1 (: it's probably my favorite "well known" cello piece and i'm excited to get it going<3 i'm also working on flight of the bumble bee for clarinet in the spring and Danzas Argentinas movement II for piano in spring (:
Right now my teachers are really pushing me for music scholarships at WSU..but i get the feeling i may be attending a community college if i can get a full ride and a job playing with bands and choirs

well, that's my life since last update, see you next time (:

"Silhouettes above the cradle hold me down
They won't let me go the wrong way
My mother taught me all the fables, told me how
In the end all the sinners have to pay
But...

I don't wanna live like my mother
I don't wanna let fear rule my life

When i have kids
I won't put any chains on their wrists, I won't
I'll tell them this
There's nothing in this world that you can't be if you want it enough"

Ich liebe Patrick.
~Gabby

Things are going pretty swell right now
Gav and I have been together for 7 months now, and it's still in that cutesy stage that i've never really been in for more than 2-3 months.. it's nice to be going so slow with everything, besides the looming date of move in day, there's not really any stress between us
i have alot of time to spend with my friends and to spend with gav, and in all, i'm pretty dang happy spending my days shopping for fun stuff with hope at the mall, or stealing gavin's xbox for the weekend... it's a final relaxing summer before all the chaos of the next school year, packed senior summer and college and living in the real world begins..

I've got a monster to tame
It looks alot like your face
I said to let go of all your inhibitions with me
We'll make all our worries disappear with our feet

Don't worry
Come with me
And move now
Slowly
Sweat it out

Don't stop pulling me closer
I love it when you let me fall to your hands
Don't stop pulling me closer
My favorite thing is when you don't stop dancing

I've got a monster to please
It says to dance with me
Pppplease violent dancer drag yourself to the floor
And don't stop swinging till we break down the doors

And swing now
Twist around
And move now
Further
Sweat it out

Don't stop pulling me closer
I love it when you let me fall to your hands
Don't stop pulling me closer
My favorite thing is when you don't stop dancing

~If Grace is an ocean, then we're all sinking

wenn die Flamme nur heiss genug ist.

havn't i suffered enough?

pfft, of course not.