Going to Fort Hays in the fall, Music Ed Major. I'll be rooming with Hope on the sole condition of... JALEPENO LIGHTS!!
I'm happy i'll be with my good friends and gavin next year, and i know i'll always be doing my best out there. They have everything I need, except a few minor things, but beyond those superficial wants, i'm all set.
The big thing it came down to between fort hays and wsu was the marching band factor. it's hard to be a respectable marching band director if you havn't participated in one in college... I hope to teach in wichita in about 6-7 years it's all so terribly exciting
I can't wait to be out of her, my mom is just refusing to get along with me before i leave.. it's not that big of a surprise though.. my whole family got me college money or money for books and she got me a christmas ornament shaped candy dish. not only is it a candy dish, but it's a candy dish i can only use at one time of the year. -.-
School is going really well, i've been spending more time and growing closer to Gavin's family even though he's not here. We all miss him terribly and it's starting to feel a little less weird attending mccafferty events without him. I sorta belong there now, and his family accecpts me and i love them.
A big thing that's come up between the two families is what to do after high school, in college and after college with gavin. if things work out through college, then not much longer after i get my degree, i'll probably get married (i'd be appx 23-24) and after appx 6-7 years of dating by then, i think i could make the educated decision to settle down.. i don't know for sure.. and i sorta want to keep my options open but i really don't foresee any complications with gavin besides the possibility of growing apart a little during college years... we'll only ever be in the same place every other year at most.. and even that might not happen..
All i know is that i love him to pieces, with almost every piece i have. and for now, i'm happy, and that's all i'm really focused on.. we're pretty determined to not let our relationship advance during college because of the uncertainty of it all, and i am his first girlfriend.. if something did happen, i wouldn't want his future to be filled with any less oppertunities because of me.

in school news, band is a pain. i'm so tired of kirk and whitcomb thinking they know my instrument when they don't know shit. they're not making informed decisions on the things we need and they refuse to be any help to us without insulting us first. what kind of teacher doesn't help a student in need? it's the most rediculous thing.. i'm so tired of it
my other classes are going quite well and i'm so excited for college.. i have a few scholarships lined up already and i've got to apply for a few more (mostly ones that pertain to my asian heritage! hurray for reaping benefits of the minority status!)
thanks for reading, this is my only safe place to really vent right now about life..